I am a pure man, but shed the blood of a pure sinner.

So long.

2008-12-12T11:32:00.001-08:00

I'm out of this mothafucka. Find me if you can.

So There It Is.

2008-12-07T20:11:00.000-08:00

I admit. Every little thing I do just inflicts bad feelings on me for some reason. Can't explain it.

HUSH.mp3

2008-12-04T19:46:00.000-08:00

I am your book of love waiting to be open.

THANKSGIGGIN '08

2008-11-29T21:59:00.000-08:00

Thanksgiving this year was.. weak. I know it's bad of me to say that. But I'm only saying that because my grandma wasn't here this year.. horrible. The least we could do was call her, and we did. It was great to hear her voice. We miss you Grandma!

Black Friday wasn't what I expected it to be. But I can say that it isn't the last time I'll be going out that day! First time I went out on Black Friday this year. I went to the Vacaville Outlets with Tem and Charles. Went there around 2:30 about. It was crazy! HELLA people walking everywhere. First stop was Nike. It was PACKED, like THE PACK (that didn't make sense). It was horrible, I was still drunk from the family party. After Nike, I don't even remember... But I remember that Tem and Charles got chocolate, went to Hello Kitty, Vans, and other places. Hello Kitty was on point! Discounts on the bombest gum in the world = sex. But yeah! Later on in the day, I went back with my parents and got some b-ball shorts and Nike shirts for a nice price. Then went home.

Fin.

On a side note

2008-11-27T11:25:00.000-08:00

The year is coming to a quick end.

Happy Thanksgiving!

2008-11-27T11:17:00.000-08:00

Good morning everyone! You know what today is. HAPPY THANKSGIVING!

To each and everyone of you that's ready this, you all really don't know how thankful I am for having you in my life. And those who aren't reading this, you guys know who you are anyways. I am thankful for having a big, strong family. This year, my grandma won't be able to join us since she's in the P.I. I hope she's safe over there with Bryan. To all my friends, close and not so close, just know that you make me who I am. Each of you are a part of me, little or small. Just know that I love you all.

Happy Thanksgiving to all. Have fun and be safe!

Lonley Season.

2008-11-26T14:03:00.000-08:00

On repeat:

Falling In Love.mp3
Wife You Up.mp3
Little Angel.mp3
Crazy Kind Of Love.mp3
If I Was Your Man Pt. 1.mp3
If I Was Your Man Pt.2.mp3
PDA (We Just Don't Care).mp3
I Can Change Your Life.mp3
Lose Your Love.mp3
It's A Love Thing.mp3
Vienna.mp3
New Man.mp3
Trading Places.mp3
Gotta Believe It.mp3
Apetite.mp3
Used To Be.mp3
I Can't Stop Missing You.mp3
Every Little Thing.mp3
Miss Independent.mp3
She Got Her Own.mp3
Let Me Love you.mp3

Jesus Christ.

The holidays are coming!

2008-11-26T12:54:00.000-08:00

Tomorrow is Thanksgiving! You know that I'm a loving guy. So of course if I didn't have each and everyone of you, I'd be so incomplete, literally. So whoever reads this, know that I love you to deafffff!

Damn.

2008-11-25T11:27:00.000-08:00

So it's been a year. A bad year. A year full of upsets and disappointments. All I think to myself is, "What if?" You can actually say it's been a year, and counting...

Comtemplating.

2008-11-19T19:27:00.000-08:00

Things are improving. Things in the house are getting calmed down. Family is keeping up. Things are, I guess, getting a little better. Still some problems though. I am really slippin' in school, really not cool. I'm a Junior now, what the fuck am I doing? I can't make a living of playing PS3 and working out all the time. I hope I can really make up for all of I haven't done.

Health update. My body seems to be finally working at its best. I need a huge check up, though. My heart has been sort of aching more than before and my knees are just dying out. Anybody want to be my nurse?

That's it for now, folks.

My health

2008-11-14T22:58:00.000-08:00

hasn't felt any better. Eating right, working out everyday, and keeping up with myself again feels GREAT. Finally found a class to take, SHOOTFIGHTING aka SHOOTO. I need/want to bring a friend cause it's half off if I do. Anybody interested? Well, recently I've made a little decision. I am going to be moving up a weight class, Middleweight, 185 Ibs. Going to be kind of hard going from Welterweight to Middlewight, considering that I want this to happen as soon as possible.

40 Days seem like time has been forever.

2008-11-08T18:30:00.001-08:00

Hey Grandpa, how are you doing up there? The past 40 days seemed dull without you. I hope you heard our prayers today. Please watch over Grandma and the rest of the family okay? We miss and love you, Grandpa.

Anything wrong?

2008-11-08T01:04:00.000-08:00

So its been a while yet again, people. If you may ask, not much is going on with me. Daily rambles with friends, encounters with the lost angels, breathing heavy sighs, it's still the same.

Recently thinking, I kind of had a flashback. Looking back sort of brought me down. But I got mad and sad. Why is it that the nice guys don't really have a right to be around? Or so I feel. I don't know what it is, but going through 8 breakups and going through a lot more of wear and tear hasn't been so easy. I know me being a teenager that this is something I shouldn't even be thinking about, but whatever. It's just a little too late. I've already polluted my mind with thoughts to keep myself "happy". We all know that nothing is going to happen, but it's okay, I'm used to it. A thought I've had for a while is that why do girls always say that they can't find the right guy, or that they can never be happy? HELLO, I'm right in front of you! Or "he's" right in front of you. Do you get it? Cause I surely don't.

I don't know what it is, I mean I have a lot to give. I'll give you all of my desired respect, happiness, sense, humor, insights, and a lot more. It's like girls really don't see what's good until they do somthing stupid. I'm not asking for any sympathy whatsoever, I just want to know why. I want to know why all of these girls broke up with me and regret it now. what happened? I just don't understand how I was a good person to them, and they still go and ask why they can't find a good man. Why don't you do something about it?!

Jesus, ladies, wake up here!

7 Years.

2008-10-29T22:49:00.000-07:00

Uncle, it's been 7 years since you were taken away from us. Know that we will always miss you. I know that you're watching over us, especially Grandma and Brian. Make sure you keep them safe okay? Miss you, hope you're doing well up there with the big man. We love you.

Sweet? 16.

2008-10-26T13:34:00.000-07:00

Late entry, but Happy Birthday to yours truly folks. Finally 16. I don't know what it is, but I don't really see THAT much significance being 16. Well, that only goes for me, since I can't get my license until next year. This past year hasn't been that good. I couldn't really experience the feeling of turning 16 with all of this stress still held upon myself. But it's okay.

I want to say thanks to those who remembered. The few, the proud. For my birthday, I ate at The Dead Fish and watched 'Max Payne'. Movie was dumb. I finally found my birthday gift(s)! I purchased some Bred I PHATs and Azure/Sea Crystal Blazers. No heat, but they cost way more than ya mama!

Man in Darkness.

2008-10-18T15:07:00.000-07:00

I truly don't know who I am anymore. Crying and hurting myself doesn't help. I honestly didn't think this would ever happen to me. I feel as if I'm really mistakenly placed here. Another death in "my family" just happening just adds more sorrow. Just thinking about it now just hit me. Another death experience has just gone worse. My grandpa was really a part of me. I didn't him that well, but I still did everything I could to help him. Grandma isn't doing so well. She's really stress, she's losing a lot of weight, she just seems really really REALLY unhappy. I just can't cope with all of this anymore.

I don't even know if I'm really part of a family. I mean I feel like I'm literally excluded from everything. I feel like my other half doesn't like me at all. Despite all of that, I'm still a good person to them. I'm nice to everyone. I just don't know what it is with me.

I feel like my mom hates me more than ever. My so called "sister" just killed my life mentally. I don't know what to do or think about anymore. My mom knows I've done drugs, my mom will eventually know that I've driven illegaly, she'll know that I steal, and eventually my whole life will be revealed. I don't know what it is anymore. I'm starting to become a huge problem to this family.

I'm just so bottled up right now, that I can't even think about what to do next. Being the person I am, I'm great with keeping everything contained inside of me and my room. Being lonely is not easing. Going through 8 break ups is not easy. Probably being led on twice in a row is definitely not easy to deal with. I don't know what I do wrong. I have so much to offer, and so much more. Ruining my youth hood looking for a steady girlfriend is just my way of life now. Honestly, I always try to find a girl, but always fail. I honestly and truly that she was a girl I can call a keeper. The worst always has to happen to the good people.

Ever since I have become a teenager, life has been down. Ever since I turned 13, my life has turned around. Teenhood ruined me. Drugs, lying, and so much more has drastically affected my life. And of course, I've done those things because I'm a teenager right? I guess so. But everything was perfect before middle school. I really wish I can turn these years around and change everything. I wish I can start back at One.

I don't know what to do anymore...

On a side note..

2008-10-17T17:36:00.000-07:00

Reading among my previous blogs, everything has been the same. I guess I've just been getting my hopes up for everything around me when I shouldn't. Life has been drooping down. Experiencing another death in the family didn't go so well. I didn't really know my grandfather that well, but living with him for a while showed me how good of a person he was. Hearing all these stories about him told me how dedicated and loving to our family he was. He planned on retiring with my grandma in the Philippines, but unfortunately, that didn't get to happen. But at least we know he's in a better place where he can relax forever and watch over us. We'll miss you, Grandpa.

Besides the things that happened and are happening, I'm emotionally crushing again. I don't know what it is with girls, man. All I know is that I need to stop being a whiny bitch about it, but it's okay, I keep it to myself. But seriously, a girl that ACTUALLY has what I'm looking for, fiending for, daydreaming for is... I don't know. We go from huggy huggy to "Hi." and "Bye." Please don't pull this on me. I know it's been just a short while we've been "talking", but little things have a drastic affect on me in the long run. I know I sound ""clingy"" or whatever, but I'm just not trying to fool myself again for the second time in a row. Carmel, if you're reading this, don't say anything, please.

WOW.

2008-10-17T17:28:00.000-07:00

So much stress and tiredness accumulated in less than 48 hours, amazing. So fortunately, my parents got to come home on Wednesday. Happy thing is, they're here, but they didn't bring that happy vibe. To make a long story short, my parents had to do what OTHER people were supposed to do, we have family trying to take advantage of us, I miss my grandmother, one of my grandfathers has passed away, and my dad was arrested. About my dad getting arrested, we basically got drained for every penny we DON'T have, tight right? Hearing my parents telling me these things just threw a lot of stress and overwhelmed me. The only thing that's good right now, is that my parents are home and safe. Thank the Lord.

BUMMER.

2008-10-15T12:46:00.000-07:00

So yesterday, my parents were supposed to come home from the Philippines. Unfortunately, they aren't home! Turns out that my dad is sitting in jail right now, detained. I don't know exactly what happened, but everyone around me is telling me that he got stopped from boarding the plane because of his gun. I don't know what happened, I mean he boarded the plane and got there easily and all. Thing is that everyone is saying that he didn't have any paperwork, or a permit, to be dragging his fire arm around. All I know is that as of now, my dad is sitting in jail waiting for a lawyer. I don't know about my mom, since I haven't talked to her in a long time. I just hope that everything is alright down there. I just hope that they can at least be home by the end of this week.

Bless Me.

2008-10-14T11:08:00.000-07:00

Lately, I've been good. I've been waking up in a better mood this past week, I've been smiling a lot, and I've been keeping happy thoughts in my head. As of now, I'm good. And for that, I have to thank Ms. "Tinkerbell", or so Carmel calls her. "Cute" nickname right? Whatever you say.

But aside from this, I'm writing a blog to ask for a prayer for my Grandpa Ciano. Tomorrow, he is getting a heart transplant, and I think he is getting a new defribrilltor. I just want him to be safe and live healthier after the process. Lord, please bless him and let him be stronger than ever.

Time towards history.

2008-10-10T10:10:00.000-07:00

So, it's been a while again since I've blogged. Again! It's a shame how I don't even do anything at home, when I should be updating this thing, but it's okay.

So lately, things have been kind of, I don't know, rough? I mean it's not like I'm going to die or anything. Maybe life has just been pretty dull and empty. So I made a decision that I should've made a little sooner. I've been thinking. Too many things have been on my mind lately. I miss my parents, I miss my grandma, I've been doing pretty bad in school, and a lot more. But one thing I should've done a long time ago has been finally done. I decided that I should call it quits between Czarina and I. Like I told everyone, I had my chance. It's cool with me, I blew and all, I know that. But it's alright, right? We're still friends and all, and that's what matters, so it's cool by me. Story is that I started to like her again, but I knew from the beginning that nothing was going to happen. To make a long story short, she just lead me on, or so I feel. Basically, I was the one to put in effort towards trying to make something happen between us. I was the one to always the person to talk to her outside of school. The only time she ever called me was when she "thought" that I was mad at her. BS right? But whatever, I'm done with all this stupidass shit among my ex girlfriends. But I have one question for you guys. WHY DO YOU FUCK WITH ME STILL?

But aside from all this stupid shit, there has been this one little person that I've been hanging out with. She makes me feel so goooooooooooooooooooooood. We actually hang out, we talk, we eat together, we laugh together, and a lot more. But that's just a preview for you guys. We'll see what happens, yeah?

Truth.

2008-09-28T18:00:00.000-07:00

For once, I have received a meaningful fortune. It said ,"You find beauty in ordinary things. Appreciate this gift." For some reason, I felt like that little piece of paper knew me. Strange, yes. I just feel like that fortune deserves to be known.

But speaking about it, that's true. That is who I am. I'm a person who doesn't ask for too much. Whatever I have is perfectly fine by me, I couldn't ask for anymore. I actually appreciate the way I am. I am glad that I'm not some spoiled kid that gets whatever I want. Life is just dope.

So America,

2008-09-28T15:41:00.000-07:00

how have you been?

It's been a while since I've visited this second world of mine. This place was supposed to be a place of free thought and no judgements. I guess I have been doing well right? I mean, all I do is type words of maturity about nothing, but my boring life. But why not have something to do in the meantime right? I mean I'm growing up. This blog is starting to reflect me. I start to act more chill, talk properly, and even keep to myself. Too bad people think I act strange, oh well.

Looks like it's time for an update, yeah?
Well, I've been alright I guess. I mean, it seems like I've been putting myself down a lot lately. I just feel like I can't really be really really happy as I want to be. There is always more than one thing bothering or stressing me. But no worries. I always make good use of myself. No matter what it is, I cannot and will not let my personal worries get in the way. I can't let my sadness feed onto other people. I guess people look at me as the person who is always in a good mood. I don't know, maybe I'm some sort of source of happiness or something. I won't let you guys down.

Life has been pretty much boring. Nothing new, except my grandfather passing away (R.I.P.) School is stressful more than ever. With my stupid fuck of an Algebra II teacher who can't teach. Thankfully, I have motivations to do all my work and make efforts.

I don't know. I'm fine, but I'm not. Maybe I should just stop putting negative things in my mind.

P.S. I think I have found my high school Sweetheart.

Never forgotten.

2008-09-28T15:33:00.000-07:00

Unfortunately, something tragic has yet happened in my family. My grandpa has recently passed away this weekend. He was in the Philippines in an emergency unit in Manila. I don't exaclty know what happened, but I overheard something was terribly wrong with his body. Too bad I didn't know him well. I hope he's resting in Heaven with God and the rest of the G's. Now my parents are leaving this week to the Philippines for about 2 weeks. I hope everything goes well. Grandpa, sorry your retirement plan didn't go so well. I miss and love you.

Tragedy never forgotten.

2008-09-11T20:19:00.000-07:00

Today is the day when a terrible tragedy had occurred seven years ago. Today is known as the 9/11 incident. Reported terrorists hijacked planes and ran them into the Twin Towers, thus killing lots of innocent people and injuring hundreds. Doing thus also made people commit suicide, as a lot of them decided to jump out of the buildings.

First two aircrafts were ran into the Twin Towers. Third at the Pentagon, and fourth in some field in Pennsylvania.

Take a couple of minutes and have just a little moment of silence and prayers for the 9/11 casulties and their families. Rest In Peace to the fallen of 9/11. You all shall be rembered.

Loner Status.

2008-09-01T00:21:00.000-07:00

So being by myself sucks. Being by myself just helps me sadden myself even more. It's always a nice opportunity to have alone time for yourself, but it's clearly been kind of bad. I mean when you're alone, you're supposed to be reminiscing on things you did recently or things you're looking forward too. But me? Lately, I noticed that I really want a relationship. I don't know that it is. Something about an ex girlfriend that keeps pulling me towards her. I mean, I shouldn't be talking. I had my chance back then. But boy, it would be good to do it one more time.

I know it's not even necessary to look for a girlfriend. But, I just miss that one persons quality company. I need to stop blasting these songs of EMOtion through my ears. These melodies aren't flowing so nicely in me anymore.

Labor Day Weekend!

2008-08-31T23:56:00.000-07:00

So Labor Day weekend was pretty cool. For a kickstart, my friends came to my place to go swimming! Actually my first time swimming with a lot of people. To cut it short, it was a good day with the fam. After a long day of swimming, most of us ate dinner at Sushi Tandy. Nice to see you Ate Michele!

Saturday was Auntie Marie's birthday celebration at her house. It was actually a nice time. Met a new homie, Jayden. Freshmen football player, good shit bro. Jayden, Christian, and I had to go through a lot of trouble to watch a scary movie. The movie we picked wasn't even that good. Oh well. Still a pretty nice day if you ask me.

Today! Today was pretty dope and chill. Threw a little BBQ for the weekend. Parents invited their friends and I invited some of mines. Leah and Alyssa first came by. Chilled for a little. Charles came eventually. All of us had a nice romantic dinner with Jose and his Dad at the dining table. After we all went to my room and did some fun nonsense. Tem stopped by and then it was all breezy. Leah and Alyssa left. Following with Tem and Charles. Fun and long day.

Now tomorrow is going to be full of gardening and homework.

Been a long time.

2008-08-30T12:35:00.000-07:00

Hello, world! I am doing just fine today. So it's been a long time since I've blogged.

School has been quite a drag lately. Only 2 weeks under the belt. Classes are getting pretty tough, since most of them are classes I shouldn't be in, but I'll pull through. School is straight up empty without last year's people. Speaking of school, my brotha Tem is doing it grown man at SF! I miss you dude!

But whatever about all that.
Yesterday was such a good day! After a hot week at school, we all decided to go swimming at my place. It was fun! Went with a lot of friends. I tried to teach Alyssa how to swim, but she kinda failed. It's okay, Hippo, I got you next time! After a long swim, we all decided to go to Sushi Tandy. So we dropped off Alyssa and Crystal and on we went. At Sushi Tandy, I was surprised to see Ate Michele! I didn't know she works there, miss you Ate! Boy, was sushi good! Ordered a Tempura Roll, and literally beasted it down in about a minute and a half. After dinner, Leah and I dropped off Charles. Mom said a couple of touching words. Hope you'll be fine! Then home I went. 'Twas a fun and long day.

P.S. Being single kind of sucks. And having somewhat amazing exes sucks even more.

Let's see...

2008-08-17T17:26:00.001-07:00

So folks, here it as again. Another exciting school year right around the corner. So, I have to say, this summer was not disappointing, but not as fun as I expected it to be. I mean, during the school year, I was working my ass off to struggle on passing grades. I expected summer to help relief all that stress and all, but oh well. I didn't get to do everything that I wanted, but it is all good. Basically, I went to Summer School for the first half, San Diego, San Jose, and Danville all summer. Looking back, I guess this summer was okay, I mean I got to stay in San Jose a lot to get close to my cousins there. But summer school was pretty easy, I got used to the early dragging and moaping. Classes were all quick and easy, as I got great grades in them.

After summer school, I went to San Jose. Man, it was fuckin' CRACKIN'! Christian and I would stay up hella late doing stupid shit. We chilled with our nigga Henrik like everyday, and sometimes Simon and just smoke that nice purple. Also tried my first bong. Bongs are the way to go, people! I met some new, cool people. Man, I fucking miss you Christian! After San Jose, I went to my Auntie Marie's house to spend time with the kids and such. Everyday, I basically biked and took photos everywhere. I told my auntie that I wanted a bike and she told my uncle. Guess what? I got a free bike! Thanks Unc!

Finally after 2 weeks away from home, I came home. Was really nice to see some of my friends again. This week, I went out a lot, chilled with homies, and went to the beach! And now, school is just tomorrow. Sleep early and have a good day. Hope to see you all tomorrow!

P.S. Have fun in LA and Mexico, Charles!

Ocean!

2008-08-14T11:02:00.000-07:00

Boy, what a day. First off, had to wake up really early for school orientation. It was pretty cool to see some people at school. We chilled for a quick minute then Krissy wanted to go to the beach. Charles and I agreed to come along. Leah said she would meet us up later. So we first went to Vallejo to pick up Stephanie. After, we all ate and dropped Mark off home. Then we got Alexis and went back to Vallejo. We had to bring Stephanie to Best Buy and Radio Shack for her cassette things for St. Pat. We went to her cousin's house so she can record her stuff and went to St. Pat's right away after. She quickly dropped off her stuff and off to the beach we went! It was a nice, quick drive by Alexis. When we got to the beach, we were all excited. Alexis and I didn't hesitate one minute and threw on swimming shorts and ran to the ocean. Those waves were pretty nice. They kept pulling us in everytime a new wave formed. Shit was pretty killer. So we stayed there until about 4. As we were leaving, Crystal calls and says they're lost! We were like, WOW. But we were already on the Bay Bridge as they were there. So oh well. On the way home, we stopped by Pinole to eat, or for Alexis to eat. Then we all went home. Fun and long day.

P.S. I realized I'm a play by play guy.

The great just keep falling.

2008-08-12T14:21:00.000-07:00

First up is Isaac Hayes. Amazing soul singer and voice acter known as Chef from South Park. We will miss you.

Bernie Mac was a great comedian. Had done numerous shows with other comedians and rocked them all. Also had a nice show known as The Bernie Mac Show. Man was he young. Only half a century.

Update?

2008-08-12T13:47:00.000-07:00

How am I? Why, thanks for asking.

Marc Ryan Emperador is doing just fine. Although, I would say my life is pretty much boring. But it is doing just as it as it was any time ago. My friends are still here and my family is stronger than ever. My house is still standing strong, along with our pretty healthy gardens. My room is still that strange white box surrounded by paper thin walls. I would say my body is not quite healthy as it should be. I am starting to cut down on all the bad stuff, and I am trying to exercise more often.

What's new?

Well, nothing much is new. I am still that broke guy barely getting anything for myself. But some items have come into my closet, but I shouldn't reveal that now. Well, I finally got a bike, as you saw or read in the previous entry. Other than that, nothing else is new with me.

How's the "love" life?

I don't know exactly why I threw that out there. But my other half of me isn't doing too well. I mean I shouldn't be complaining and all, but I am getting pretty lonely, but not desperate. Sad thing is, there are still some angels of the past that haunt me (That sounded weird I know). Yeah man, there is always a point in my day where an Ex just pops into my head. It makes me sad, I don't know why. But aside from that, I don't even know what love is!

Well I guess that ends my blog for now.

On a side note: Excuse the weird properness in this blog. Now that I am getting older, I realize that I need to mature a little bit. I guess I am going to try and portray a different person. I am still who you recognize me as, but my personality is going to change just a tad.

Finally.

2008-08-08T23:10:00.000-07:00

So lately, I've been wanting a bike again. No hype you assholes. No Cool Kids you bops. It's just that during summer, I was riding Charles's sister's bike a couple of times. I always thought to myself, "Wow, I forgot how fun bikes were." Also, my mom won't let me drive for a long time. So I've been kind of wanting to get a bike. I've actually been wanting a fixed bike, fixie. I've seen really nice ones on ISS. But the problem is, they cost a lot, but I'll start saving up now, why not? Today, I was telling my auntie how I've been wanting a bike. She told my uncle, and my uncle told me he would give me his old racing bike! I got really happy. He gave me a Trek 1000. It's blue and sleek. Has gears, but who cares. It'll suit me for now. Thanks unc!

Teasers.

2008-08-07T23:38:00.000-07:00

So lately, I've been at my Auntie Marie's house. Fortunately, she has a Canon Digital Rebel. Old, but still amazingly dope. I've been taking some random shots with it. Enjoy if you must.

SAN JO KNOWS.

2008-08-07T22:41:00.000-07:00

Before you read this, just know I will take a break from all maturity levels I live on with this entry. This may seem like the normal me, but it is up to you to decide. But for an insight, this blog is about my week and a half stay in San Jose, with the Timbols.

DUDE, I FUCKING MISS SAN JOSE! I MISS MY BROTHER CHRISTIAN! I MISS ATE ELYSSA! I MISS HENRIK! I MISS SIMON! I MISS CHARMAINE AND LORRAINE! I MISS KEON! I MISS ALLISON! I MISS KARL! I MISS TRYSHNA! I MISS JERALD! I MISS ANDREW HO! I MISS THOSE MALL BOPS!

Damn dude, San Jose was fucking tight. Almost everyday, Christian and I blazed on that hot puff daddy PURPLE. We got to hang out with niggas like Every Single Day. Basically, Christian and I went to the Great Mall, smoked, and went to our nigga Henrik's house to smoke again. But enough of that. Man, I basically miss San Jose to the fullest. I miss the homies down there and shit. Late nighters with Christian, no homo. Walks to 7-11 aka Chalk City. Fights Christian and I had. Pranks on AIM we did. PS3 time. Chilling with Ate.

Just too many things to name. Time really fucking does fly when you're having a good time. Life is a bitch for that one. So now, I'm going to be back at home again bored and quiet out of my mind. School is starting soon, WOOHOO! My fucking ass. Man. Life is just great..

072908

2008-07-30T11:10:00.000-07:00

WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT A GOOD DAY YESTERDAY! Man, yesterday was hella dope and fun. Guess what? After two months, I finally got to see my babe, Naomi! We decided to meet up at Valley Fair. So around 3ish or so, we met up. We just walked around with Christian, went to Metro Park and ate. After I ate, we decided to watch a movie back at the Great Mall. We watched The Dark Knight! Shit was pretty tight, ;). So midway through the movie, Naomi's sister wanted to leave, so we walked around the mall for a little. After we walked, Naomi had to go home. After she left, Christian and I just finished the movie and ate. After, we waited for his sister to pick us up. While we waited, we met some random, cool dude named Mack. He said he works at Dreyers, so he'll hook us up with free ice cream. Now THAT is leet. Finally, we got picked up. Christian's sister, her co-worker, Christian, and I took some hits at some random park. That shit was great! Christian and I were mad trippin' though. We were all hungry as fuck, but the Carne Asade fries place was closed. So we all decided to get In N Out, shit was so good! Then we just went home, chilled, ate some more, and fell asleep. Fun and long good day!

Mattshoe.

2008-07-27T21:00:00.000-07:00

YAY! SUMMER SCHOOL IS FINALLY OVER! 6 weeks of dragging everyday is finally over, thank God. Today, Eric, Charles and I took a few hits at the park near Charles's house. Then we all just chilled and ate some food. I fell asleep until it was time to go to Vallejo to celebrate Charels's oldest sister's birthday, Ate Tichi! We got dropped off at there house and we played Rockband for a while. As I was playing, I see somebody's head pop out out of nowhere. IT WAS MATT! Damn, I missed this fool, no homo. So us 3 just left to chill at the park and stogey it up. After, we walked to the Value Center to look for a bike, no luck. Then we walked to Sea Food City to get a drink, but ended up not getting anything. So we just went to that liquor store along the way home. Been a while since I've stepped into there as well. Charles got the big Monster and Matt and I got some Bazooka and Laffy Taffy.

After the store, we went to Matt's house. It's been a really long time since I've been there. When I walked in, his room looked a lot different. Same things, just differently organized. Feng Shui anybody? We all talked and kicked it for a while to wait for Charles's mom to pick me and Charles up. When we got picked up, we waited at the house and left to the Chinese restaurant. Food was not even all that, and those Asian ladies were bitches. After we ate, we all went back to the house to play ROCKBAND. It was hella fun playing as a whole band for the first time. I tried ripping it on the guitar, but I did alright. Oh yeah, we all had two shots of Sake. I didn't know Sake was actually good. It was warm. After playing for a long time, we finally left and called it a night. Fun and long day gain!

Best one of them all.

2008-07-27T20:51:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday Hippo! I know I'm late for this blog, but whatever. But HOWever, it was Alyssa aka my HIPPO's birthday on last Thursday. Me and Charles decided to surprise her at her house. Fortunately, we were the first ones. Boy was it great to be at her Pad again! I missed it hella much. For her birthday, I gave her a Hippo toy and a card.

While everyone and everything was being made and getting ready, Charles and I were chillin' and having some fun. After Alyssa got ready, we all chilled and talked until everyone finally arrived. First people to arrive were Leah and Crystal. Man, I missed them! Leah was also getting ready as well. After those two, Czarina came. Then Jaybee, then Marlon. We all ate some good homecookin' and chopped it up for a while. Then Leah left with Crystal to drop Crystal off. Then Marlon and Danica left to get something and I guess pick people up. Leah came back, following with Marlon, King, and Rowell. Later on, Krissy and David came. I missed those two like hella! It was good to see them. Then a while later, Alexis and Jelly came. We all chopped it up for a good while and had some fun. After a while, people started to leave, then Ian came. I guess they were going to go to a Telly, but I guess they didn't want me and Charles there. Oh well! Fun and long day anyways.

Rest in Peace.

2008-07-23T20:54:00.000-07:00

Recently, one of my distant relatives that meant a lot to us has passed away. I didn't really know him, but I have had time with him before in the Philippines. He was my Uncle Joseph, my grandma's cousin. He helped us out a lot when my uncle Allan died. I just wanted to make a little entry for him because I miss him dearly. We'll miss you uncle Jojo. I hope you're resting up there with Uncle Allan. We love you guys.

Happy Birthday!

2008-07-21T19:33:00.000-07:00

This past weekend had our friend's birthdays! Happy Birthday to Tem and Breanna! We celebrated Breanna's birthday at Charles's house on Saturday. It was a real chill and fun day. We danced a lot, skated, and watched Step Up 2 basically. And hella late, surprisingly, Leah, Alyssa, and Danica came by. It was nice to see them for a quick minute though! Fun and long day! Happy Birthday to you guys again!

Best Yet.

2008-07-18T21:46:00.000-07:00

Out of all of the crazy Air Jordan packages of 2008, I would have to say that the VI/XVI package would be the best. I would have gone with the VII/XVI package, but the VIs and XVIs have been favored by me for a long time. Some honorable mentions among some of the Packages are of course the Bred IVs, Hare VIIs, and the Bred XVIs.

Some pics of the Package. Word up to Air Randy and ISS.

July 4th!

2008-07-12T15:42:00.000-07:00

So I know it's been a pretty long while since I last wrote a blog. Don't worry, there is no excuse to it, such as "I've been busy" or "Life has been to rough on me". But I've been easily lazy. I actually have a mad disease known as Niggaitis. But enough of that.

As you all know, I went to San Diego for the July 4th weekend. It all started on Wednesday when I went to the Timbols' house. As the usual, I got to chill with Christian and play ps3. As a bonus, I got to webcam with my Babe! She was lookinnnnn good as usual. Me and Christian fell asleep around 4 or 5. We woke up at around 7 something, WOW. So all of us got ready and were on our way outta the house by 8. The trip going there was pretty chill, lots of sleep and TRAFFIC. Unfortunately, my sidekick's insufficient funds screen popped up as we peeked into LA. How gay was that? I got mad, but I slept my way through it in traffic.

Finally after the long traffic, we were in SAN DIEGO! Our Hotel, La Fayette, was pretty decent. It had an old, almost antique-ish look to it. The pool was nice! Deep end was 9 ft, something I haven't seen in a long time. When we arrived at the hotel, we didn't hesitate to get ready for the amazing Sea World. It was my first time going, and boy was I NOT impressed. Best thing I encountered was Pets Rule. Dope animals going all over the place. After Sea World, me and the family met up with my Dad at some restaurant/sushi bar. It was nice to see him after so long again. At the restaurant, my dad knew the head sushi chef, Mike, I think was his name. He made AMAZING SUSHI! Other than that, his very own Banana Fosters was off the hook! After we ate, Christian, my dad, Ate, and I went to go watch Hancock. I thought the movie was pretty good. It was funny as hell. Nice to see Will Smith play a different kind of role. Oh yeah, my dad surprised me with a PLAYSTATION3! I was stupid happy. Thanks again Dad. After the movies, we all went home and slept.

Next morning, we all woke up around 8, but Christian and I went back to sleep. We met up with the rest for breakfast around 9:30. I made my very own waffle and ripped through it fast. After breakfast, we all went swimming in the nice, big pool. After swimming, we were all craving the all mighty Super Sergios, for their super CARNE ASADE FRIES. Shit was so bomb! After, my dad picked me up and we dipped to his place. I went to his apartment for the first time, and boy was it hot there. His place was pretty cozy I guess. He had HELLA insects though, and they all freaked me out. He showed me to play World Of Warcraft (W.O.W.), and I thought it was gayer than ever. But after I saw his place, we went to my grandparent's house. It was nice to see them again too! And the highlight of the day was seeing all of my little siblings. It felt dope to see them, as I missed them so much. We all got to spend quality family time by playing video games, eating good food cooked by my grandpa, and just chillin'. After fun time, my dad took Raina, Rj, and Rylan to the National City Fair. It was my very first fair as well. It wasn't half bad. The rides were pretty dope, but the one that was spinning really fast and going up and down killed me. After the fair, my dad took us to Lolitas, which had even better Carne Asade fries than Super Sergios. After the bomb dinner, my dad took my sister and I back our grandparents' house. We stayed up until 2 in the morning chilling and on the computer. Too bad I fell asleep a couple of times. Around 2:30, we both went upstairs and had a good night's sleep.

Next day, my sister and I woke up around 11 or so. We ate breakfast and chilled until our grandparents came home from Commisary. I called Christian up to see what they were doing and they were at Hortone Plaza in downtown. So me and my sister wanted to come. We got ready and headed out at around 2 I think. When we got there, we met up with Christian, walked around and ate some Super Fries (I think that's the place's name). Then we walked around for a little, and left for the shops and Boutiques in downtown. First we went to Armory and I saw a dope shirt, but they didn't have my size! Man I was pissed. Afterward, we went to 5 & A Dime. The store was pretty cool, but I didn't get enough time to look at stuff. But one of the workers there told us about the IN4MATION store and the sale. One of the people hooked us up and opened it up. I got a shirt there. Man, San Diego was having some DOPE sales. All stores had good stuff for 50% off! After IN4, we went to another boutique, which I forgot the name of. There I got my 10 Deep shirt. After, we went to a dope shoe store, called BLENDS. Word to them. I regret passing up a lot of stuff I saw. But I'll live to shop another day. After the long shopping time, we all went back to the hotel for a quick minute to settle everything down and were back out on our way to my dad's house for Christian, my sister, and me to get dropped off. We all chilled with the little bros for a quick minute and Grandpa picked up. We were on our way to my sister's friend's going away party. When we got there, I automatically did not like anybody. It was whatever though. Me and Christian were by ourselves for the meanwhile until it got dark. Man oh man were me and Christian hittin it. I swear, literally Christian, my sister and some of her girl friends, the DJ's brother and his friend, and I were the only people dancing! I actually busted out some gay Turf and Krump shit, but it was whatever. Christian got some PEARL tho my nigg! Even if the shit was NOT crackin, I still enjoyed my own self. Shout out to my boy AJ! Hope you livin the Good Life down in Houston breh! After a long day, Christian and I finally headed back to the hotel. We ate McDonalds for a quick minute and ran back. Finally, we slept.

Sunday! I woke up sadder than ever. I didn't want to leave! As we all woke up, we all got ready quickly. We packed everything and said our last goodbye to our snazzy hotel room. We left the hotel and went to the usual Filipino Restaurant for breakfast. After breakfast, I checked out some comic book and toy store. Ironically, they had some pretty cool Kidrobot stuff, so Christian and I bought a keychain. After breakfast and such, we were on our long journey to my house. The ride home was pretty long, but we eventually got to my house. Man was it great to see my parents after a long weekend. I didn't hesitate a minute to set up my PS3 and get on it. After a little setlle in, we all had great Steaks and Burgers. When dinner was over, the Timbols finally got to go to their own house and settle in as well.

I wanna thank the Timbols again for taking me to So Cal with them this year! Man oh man, I miss my family in San Diego! I hope to see you guys soon!

Stoked.

2008-06-29T15:26:00.000-07:00

Man am I excited! For July 4th weekend, I'm going to San Diego with the Timbols. Leaving on Thursday morning. ROADTRIP! Can't wait to see my grandparents, my sister, my little brothers, and my dad! Okay, I'm done.

Pussy!

2008-06-29T15:05:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, I went to see the movie Wanted with my parents. Hands down, this movie was fucking SICK! This movie had all the right characters as they all played dope roles. The gunshot swerve move was amazing, but impossible. I wanna try that anyways. You already know that Angelina Jolie is looking sexy as always. Nice ass! This is definitely a must-see movie.

Tribute.

2008-06-29T14:56:00.000-07:00

So earlier today I was lurking around on ISS. I was in the Lounge just looking around. I was skimming titles and I saw SYDNI_Y0SHIE somewhere. I saw the title, and it said "R.I.P. SYDNi_Y0SHiE <33" All I did was drop my jaw and click it. I read what happened and it just truly made me sad. I barely knew her, but I have seen her around ISS. She had amazing photography. I've seen her posts here and there as well. She was a very dope person. I just hope she's resting in Heaven. My sincere condolences to her dear friends and family.
June 13 1990 - June 28 2008.

The article about her incident:

This was a video of Sydni singing. She really did have some talents.

The LAZY Eye.

2008-06-22T02:25:00.000-07:00

Looks like another pretty good movie for the young star, Jessica Alba. Seems like this movie was a good hit for her. Portraying a character that had eye surgery that has gone bad, she fulfilled another girl's mission, or plan to save a lot of people. This was a pretty chilly movie, made me jump a couple of times. Not bad.

Bummed.

2008-06-22T02:13:00.000-07:00

Okay, so I'm going to waste like 4 minutes of your life right now. Yes, I'm going to be a little whiny bitch. But this weekend was supposed to be ULTIMATE. Everything was planned out and going according to plan on Friday. My plan was to go to my cousin KC's house and sleep there for a day. But besides that, I was supposed to finally meet my wonderful BABE, Naomi Ariana Muribus! I told my parents and they were down, especially my dad. They said I could just take BART and get picked up. So I get happy. Then later on, my mom all of a sudden said I can't go. Total bullshit. She was down before and then she just killed everything. I was so happy to finally get the chance to see her for once, and my mom simply ruined it. I got so pissed off and everything.

The next day, I asked her why she didn't let me go. Well, it's because I'm kind of too young to be alone and it's not safe. I don't blame her for thinking that, but come on. It would've been a really quick trip, and I can handle myself. Thanks for caring, mom, but I could have done it.

Strapped with a 9.

2008-06-22T02:03:00.001-07:00

So today was very hot. And for this very hot day, I played Golf with my Dad in Vacaville. We warmed up at the range for a little. I completely lost my swing and everything, but I got it back soon enough. After warming up, we decided to play the front 9 holes. It was good, actually completed it this time. Too bad I sucked more than ever though, I got like around triple to 5 Bogeys each hole. But it was still great! Good day, good game.

Oh man.

2008-06-19T17:54:00.000-07:00

I am screwed as of .. now

Bandwagoning asshole

2008-06-18T20:51:00.001-07:00

As we all know, the Boston Celtics has won the 2008 NBA Championship Finals. It was an intense series this year, no doubt. It was nail biting, just like back in the 80s.. rivalry. Congratulations on Paul Pierce getting the MVP award. Congrats to Kevin Garnett and Ray Allen finally getting a ring. This win was well earned and deserved. Now that we know that Boston is no joke, they will surely be hectic in the future. I know I am a total bandwagoner, but not really. I've actually liked the Celtics, don't worry.

Wow!

2008-06-16T21:05:00.000-07:00

What a vacation. Guess what? I have summer school! So basically, my vacation is fried. Maybe not. The only bad thing is that I have to sleep AND wake up early everyday for 6 weeks. So maybe it actually won't be that bad, but damn, what an inconvenience. It is my fault though, I have to stay on track for the next two years or else it's all down the drain.

Well, besides from all that other unnecessary hassle in my life, the past week has been goood! I got to stay in San Jose for a week with the favorites. It was crazy. Me and Christian played ps3 all day, drove a lot, and finally got to do what he wished for. Some stuff we did was go to the Thomas Russel Middle School graduation at MHS (CONGRATULATIONS!), watch The Happening (Horrible!), and pick up Metal Gear Solid 4, CRACKIN. We also went to the mall a couple of times, nice stuff there. A highlight of the trip was to see all the old friends in the area. I got to see Nick, Karl, Raymond, Jerald, Jessica, Aaron, Mimi, Andrew, Tryshna, Henrik, Simon, and maybe other people I forgot to mention. Guess what? We saw PJ! We missed him so much, he's getting bigger and furrier! He's dope. What else? I FINALLY GOT TO SEE MY MUFFIN BECCA! It's just too bad we didn't get to chill for a while, nice to see you though! Finally met the nigg Henrik, FAsho. Well, that's basically it. Just came back for an update. See ya!

P.S.: WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU CELTICS? I hope you were just toying with the Lakers to lead the series win back at home.

WHAT HAPPENED?!

2008-06-14T02:27:00.001-07:00

Wow, all I have to say is that this movie was horrible. The whole idea of the problem was creative, but they chose a really bad way to set it off. Come on, plants? Definitely not worth your $6.50 or $10. This movie wasn't good for Mark Wahlberg, please stick to hot action.

What a mind blower.

2008-06-13T13:07:00.000-07:00

This game release has to be a highlight of the year. Crazy game! I didn't think this game was going to be this hot. From the ill graphics, dope gameply, and old family characters, it's fucking exciting. Me and Christian hella drove to get this game. I thought it was going to be a waste of time, but NOPE. For those who got it, good choice.

Just one more squeeze!

2008-06-13T10:14:00.001-07:00

Boston Celtics have been doing good than ever. Yesterday's game was truly crazy. Possibly one of the best comebacks in Finals history. Crazy defense and strong offense. Good game Celtics. Just one more game.

CELTICS '08!

2008-06-05T22:01:00.000-07:00

Good job for the first game Boston. BOSTON CELTICS FOR 2008 CHAMPIONS! 1-0

CONGRATULATIONS.

2008-06-05T21:56:00.000-07:00

GOOD JOB AND CONGRATULATIONS TO THE CLASS OF 2008 OF ANGELO RODRIGUEZ HIGH SCHOOL! I just want to say that I'm proud of all you guys. I will most definitely miss most of you. Just remember I won't forget about you guys. Good luck for the future everybody!

It is that time of the school year.

2008-06-03T21:49:00.000-07:00

Well, it's the end of the school year and we've all grown in different ways. From things that go on in and out of school, we are emotionally stronger, academically higher, and more responsible. This school year out of all my time in schooling was the best by far, and that is including middle school and lower grades.

In the beginning of the year, I was one annoying motherfucker, don't lie. I was really loud and obnoxious, and I've learned to control myself and lower myself down. I know I have grown to be more wise, while taking the liability to learn how to handle responsibilities. I have also become somewhat studies oriented. This school year has simply given m a couple of more memories to add to the box. Of course, a lot of lessons have been taught and learned well.

Seniors, tomorrow is your day to shine. You guys are fresh into the Real World. You guys are going to college and I know you will all live life successfully. As you guys live life to the fullest, it will honestly be hard to at Rodriguez without you guys next year. Most of the places we hang out at are going to be half empty and we will surely miss your presence. Maybe I sound like a complete pushover, but whatever. I know I will really miss you guys, althought I will see some of you often outside of school. It just will not be the same AT school. Well, good luck to all of you. Our time will come to shine soon enough in two years.

Fellow sophmores! As of tomorrow at 12:10, we will be Juniors! We are all growing up too fast. Good luck on the final day of Finals tomorrow all.

What is going to happen to the future generations?

2008-06-01T19:24:00.000-07:00

So this weekend is coming to end, yahoo. Well fortunately and unfortunately, this is going to be the last weekend of the 2007/2008 school year. This weekend was like all ordinary weekends, but yet not. Within the week, I learned a couple of things. I've learned about them before, but a little forum known as ISS has helped me out. Weird, but yeah. So I was looking at the Powerful pictures thread. It wasn't my first time course, but yeah. There some pictures of war, poverty, people suffering, world disasters and lot more. And I know people have a lot of opinions about the world and we know most of them are biased, as some of mine are. But to cut this blog short, I've realized that life really, really is too short and delicate to fuck around with. Also, people's opinions really need to be heard, we have to stand up and speak out minds and hearts out, but it's not like that's going to happen. And last but not least, America is not going anywhere for a long time except DOWN.

Why have I formed these thoughts?
First off, life is way too precious to fuck with. For instance it's like a fragile box. Once you drop the box, the item(s) are broken and can never be fixed again, otherwise it's dead. Now see with life, we can be broken and gone anytime, anywhere, anyplace. That may not make sense but try to think about it.

Second, the voice of the people need to be heard. Seriously, the stuff WE say is just being heard through one ear and going out the other. Us young cats are starting to realize what's happening to this world and what the future can end up to be. Slowly, that hell future is arriving. WE know what's going on and what needs to be done about it, but nobody fucking cares. This Government and President needs to cut down on focusing on the military and pay attention to our economy. Because of Bush, our economy is getting worse. Because of stupid and irresponsible choices, we have to suffer. One issue that is going to bug America forever is GAS. The prices of gas are rapidly increasing. We are averaging out at about nearly $4 per gallon. Another thing is the rationing of rice. I understand we need corn for oil, but come on man. Maybe my opinion is stupid and is the total opposite of what's actually happening, but that's what I see through my brown eyes, whether you like it or not. Sorry.

And last but not least, AMERICA IS SLOWLY BEING CORRUPTED. I don't want to write my whole story about it. Reality is global warming is swarming our nation, the war is getting worse, another war might corrupt, oil is becoming low, gas prices are becoming way too high, labor is starting to be cut short, pollution is becoming worse, the rich people are starting to rule over us middle class and poor people, Bush is the American Hitler, and this list is endless.

To you, sorry if my opinions are totally biased and have no value whatsoever to you. But I just have to say what I have to say. Thanks for your time.
Back to this ISS thing, there was a thread called the Powerful Pictures thread. Here are some pictures that moved me and made me think about a whole lot:

This is a Somalian mother picking up the body of her child that died from hunger.

THE TRUTH.

No lie, he was a great wrestler and a good person at heart.

Back to the topic about life being too short.

See how much Bush cares about us?

Last but certainly not least.

Maybe people need to just take a break from work, Myspace, and schooling (Honestly) and think about what is going on in this corrupted world.

Feels good to be be back.

2008-05-31T19:34:00.000-07:00

HELLOOO WORLD!

It's been way too long since I've blogged, months to be exact. A lot of shit has been happening, bad and good. First off, my camera got stolen, so that's why I've been pushed back on blogging. But don't worry, I'm back with a vengeace, but without a camera.

So what's new you ask? A LOT. School has been all bad ever since the midway of Semester 2. My grades have been down and out, making me average at under 2.0. I'm not certain of what all my grades are, but I know that I have D's in Geometry and French II. I've been trying to pull those up. I'm just way too lazy and don't motivate myself. I had the threat of moving to Fairfield High as a result of bad grade. My mom is loving and nice enough to let me stay at Angelo Rodriguez High. Although the school has a bad reputation now and the parents of many don't like it anymore, it is actually a good academic school. MOST of the teachers and staff are nice and dedicating to us students, and I appreciate that. But out of all things that could happen to me, I have been dropped out from A.V.I.D. for Junior year, what a heart breaker. My mom was just straight up disappointed at me, I couldn't take that. So I need to think this summer over and make sure I don't let it overwhelm me with even more laziness. My mom has enrolled me and my dad in some Speed Reading class, hopefully it'll help me out. This summer, I have summer school. Next year, I really can't fuck up. It'll break my family's heart once again, and I'm not having that happen again. I want my grandma Rose to see me graduate with flying colors at Rodriguez.

Family. Us Emperadors are still up and alive and still standing strong. Something unfortunate happened, sadly. My Grandma has left us to go to the Philippines and stay there. I truly don't want here there right now, it's too unsafe. We can't trust anybody anymore, she'll have troubles surviving the heat and other stuff, and it's just plain bad. I think about her everyday and look at a picture of her and I. Today, I almost cried. It's been only about a month and a couple of days, and it's all bad without her. Even though I haven't seen her a lot ever since I moved out and everything, it's really different without knowing she is around and all. Just typing this makes me sad and want to cry, thinking about something that could happen to her. Well, I know she is doing good right now with my cousin Brian, I can't wait until he comes here. I hope these 2 years pass by quickly.
How is my private life? Well, things are alright. A LOT of people are changing, good for them. I know I changed, I'm not close to ANYBODY. Sadly, that's true. There are some people I'm getting closer to, so that's good. Hopefully this summer will help me catch up on people. Summer, if you hear me, Please be nice to me and give me a good time. What else? DRUGS are bad as fuck, yet I've been doing them lately. I have been popping thizz, but the last time I actually have was last Tuesday. I'm ashamed of doing drugs, so no more thizz for me, but summer is coming up. I don't even want to know what I'm going to be doing. I'm a smoker, but thankfully I've lasted about 2 weeks without smoking anything. I am capable of having stuff on me and not doing anything still, as I have a swisher in my very closet. Temptation does kill though, and it is a Sin. What else is there? Well, there is a girl that I met.. through my cousin.. through Myspace. I haven't even met her in person yet and I like her. She's dope as fuck, cute as hell, and chill as ice. I hope this summer will help us out. If not, then not.

Well people, it's been nice typing this little update. I am going to go back to being dedicated to this Blog even without a camera. Whoever read this, thanks for your time as it is really appreciated. Have a good day and God Bless.

Stop the madness!

2008-04-12T01:20:00.000-07:00

Recently, I wrote a persuasive essay for Mr. Morgan's English 10 class. Out of all the disastrous things in the world that's happening to talk about, I chose to write about Fakes. In America, many fashions has risen. We all wore plained colored t-shirts, simple pair of pants, and the dope sneakers our mama bought at Payless. But now, we all strive to wear clothing so radical, colorful, meaningful, showy, and Dope. Although, that is only most uf us, as I forgot to mention. There are some of us left that still have it in us and keep it simple, yet unique. Back in the day, clothing was nothing. We just wore simple colors and lived on with our lives. But now, us teenagers have to spend money while just for a big piece of cotton with colors on it. As a lot of us have street knowledge, some of us do not have the quality,brand,etc. knowledge. I am here to talk about Fakes.
I feel that the FAKE clothing brands have made their way up in this corrupted world. I feel that people need to STOP wearing fake products. I FEEL THAT ALL OF THESE FUCKING FAKE CLOTHING COMPANIES AND MANUFACTURERS NEED TO BE CAUGHT,SEIZED, AND SHUT THE FUCK DOWN. The economy is making its way DOWN even farther along with the music industry, but now the Clothing Industry has taken it's seat on the long train down.

Master Enchanted

2008-04-04T20:08:00.000-07:00

So, this is Becca. She likes Emperador cookies, Double Thin Mint preferred. She likes shopping, but she hates spending money she has to save up. She is my Master, and because of her, my life is well and healthy. She despises double negatives, so don't even TRY talking in slang around her. She'll shleep yo shit, on mommas. She trained me to FLUSH the toilet and WASH my kamay. We plan to have a picnic soon, so YAY. Uhh, that's all folks.?

Eerie light?

2008-03-10T18:56:00.000-07:00

My light trails aren't coming out right anymore.

Can you follow the light into my world?

Laser Show

2008-03-08T02:33:00.000-08:00

So I'm interested in photography. I wanted to learn how to take Trail Light pictures. It's actually simpler than you think. You just have to make sure you have control of overexposure and control of shutter speed. Just take time to mess around with your camera. You don't necessarily need cars or moving lights to take these pictures. For my first time, I used my dad's police light, which was fucking sick.
Here is a good website that teaches you how to take these pictures:

A poser trail:

The real deal:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMA!

2008-03-08T02:06:00.000-08:00

Today/Yesterday was my lovely Mother's 38th birthday. She wanted to eat out with me and my dad. So we went to the casual Dead Fish, such a great restaurant. It's been a long time since we've eaten here! We all decided to go all and get down and dirty, the Crab Feast. The Crab Feast is about 4lbs of crab, but it was still not enough for me, oh well. It was great, as I missed it oh so much! After dinner, we decided to rent some movies. Btw, We Own The Night is a pretty good movie. Again: HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM! LOVE YOU. Goooodnight world!

Weird, but overwhelmed.

2008-01-02T21:38:00.000-08:00

I don't what it is dude. I've been feeling kinda weird, sad, or down lately. I don't know what it is, but I feel it a little strongly today. Either it's me, or the fact that I'm really tired. I don't know what it is, but I'm still addicted to that drug. And my ears hurt like hell.
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Another Update:
So I was on ISS looking around, and I decided to get some emotion out of me, and it turns out, I had a great cleansing moment. I was looking at all of those amazing, yet so hurtful/thoughtful/sad pictures that had me bawling my eyes out. Before I was on the thread, I was thinking about how my life is, and I feel like shit. I say to myself, STOP BEING SO RUDE AND FUCKING DISRESPECTFUL TO MOM YOU FUCKING STUPID SHIT. But yet, I still continue to do bad and hurt her, I just can't help it, maybe I need help. I was also thinking about how my family is, and same thing to my grandmother. I feel so bad and fucked up right now, that I just want to end it all. But that would make everything worse on another level. Now I really need to be a man of my word and do what I say I am. I love my family so much. Uncle Allan, Grandma Beth, Grandpa (I'm so sorry, I forgot your name), Uncle Rudy, I miss you all dearly, and I hope you guys are living well in Heaven.

Old, yet current news.

2008-01-01T05:09:00.000-08:00

I was looking though my old Blogspot, and I found this old post. Crazy.

Last night was a wake up call for me. I realized a lot of things, remembered a lot of things, and really learned a lot of things. About myself, life, and other people's lives. I learned a long time ago that I am just a plain mistake of a child. I'm fine with that. But yesterday was the night where there was going to be a meteor shower. It was beautiful. Got to spend some nice family time with my cousin as we went far from the house to a hill and just looked up into the stars. I haven't looked at the stars like that in a long, long time, so I enjoyed it. When I got home, that's when a whole lot of things hit me and made me come back to my senses. I got to learn a whole lot about somebody really important to me, and that made me feel a lot better. I even expressed a lot of things I never told anybody about. Now I'm prepared, prepared for the life goal and job I set for myself. From now on, my job is to make a difference in people's lives, make sure they all stay positive, up lead peace, and a lot of more things. But one job that's going to be hard to do is to uplead Retail selling. I feel like, it's wrong to Boost up a material thing that will get worn out so quickly for a very high price. There are a lot of things I choose to do, and no matter how long it takes, I'm risking everything I have and my whole life to commit to staying true to my job. I'm going to make myself as a mistake turn into a new Man. There are far too many things I have done wrong in my life, and too many mistakes made. Now, all of that is going to change. I am now a new Marc Ryan Emperador.

Goodbye07-Hello08!

2008-01-01T04:38:00.000-08:00

I'm finally over the year of 2007. It was a pretty great year for me. I experienced a lot of new things, and my life matured greatly. I became a better person, although I can improve myself more. I didn't stick to my resolutions of 07 at all, as I failed. But I'm really promising myself to do better this year in everything. Now I hope 08 will be as good of a year as 07 was. I know it will, but I'll just miss everything from the past year. I'll miss all those great memories, Great experiences with friends, great laughs with my parents, fun times with my cousins, driving with my cousins, and more. I know I will have a lot more of those memories though. I just pray for an even better year!

My resolutions should forever be kept here:
1. Do better in school, and keep good grades.
2. Not lie to my parents a lot.
3. Be respectful to my parents and family.
4. Be wise with my money.
5. Cut down on junk food and lose weight.
6. Let my shoe collection grow nicely.
7. Finally, find a nice girl and try to get a nice, stable relationship with her.

HAPPY NEW YEARS ALL!